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The Jaded Diaries

by Emo Side Project

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kea one of my favorite albums of all time thank u sm Favorite track: My List of 15 Things to Avoid This February and 3 New Ways to Hurt You.
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1.
Everything you want is gone. All you needed for so long was me to hang around and be your only one. I'm the only thing you'll ever need. I am the scab that you pick off your knees. It just sits and lingers. It grows back and hurts you ten times more. All you ever need is love. All you ever need is love to get you by. All you ever need to get you. I'm like the days that always seemed so long. They always seem to never end. It reminds me of the dream I had last night, The one where you would cling to me. I would never let you fall. No matter how much I wanted to let go. And believe me I wanted to let go. All you ever need is love. All you ever need is love to get you by. All you ever need to get you.
2.
I painted all the stars the colors of your eyes in hopes I'd make through tonight. You always say, Too bad you're not sensitive like him. Too bad your eyes don't compare to his. I'd rather watch the sunrise then watch myself melt into your eyes. I'd rather fall with the moon then fall in love with you. Here's my list of 15 things to avoid this February and 3 new ways to hurt you. I wrote them down on a napkin that's laying somewhere around this town. I wrote your name and address on it in hopes someone would deliver it to you for me. I'm scared to see the way you react. Have you ever let a balloon drift away And later said "I wish I would of attached myself to it?" I let myself fall away from you. This red room is painted with white roses and draped in black curtains. It's so much more beautiful without your eyes to block the sight. Here's my list of 15 things to avoid this February and 3 new ways to hurt you. I wrote them down on a napkin that's laying somewhere around this town. I wrote your name and address on it in hopes someone would deliver it to you for me. I'm scared to see the way you react. Happy valentines my love. Goodnight and goodbye. Here's my list of 15 things to avoid this February and 3 new ways to hurt you. I painted all the stars the colors of your eyes in hopes I'd make through the night.
3.
Everyday I wake up and I'm in love with you so much. I wouldn't have it any other way. I slip on my jeans, tie my shoes, get in my car and I'm off to see you. It's a fairy tale that's come to life. You're the princess and I'm the prince. I can't believe that you feel the same for me but you do. Take my hand and grasp it tight. Hold me all through the night. I wanna spend forever with you. Whatever happens we can get through. I am yours and you are mine for now and until the end of time. I never knew I could be so happy. Thank you for all that's happened. I just want you to know I wouldn't trade this for the world. Do I dare to say the three words I love you? I want to but I'm scared of what it could mean. What if you don't like me back? Would you ever say it too? Maybe so. Maybe not. Ok I'll dare. I said it now. I hope you're happy. I just let it slip out of my mouth. Oh, you love me too? I'm so happy I could die. I think my heart just skipped a beat. But instead of dying I'll hold you tight. I love you. I wanna spend forever with you. Whatever happens we can get through. I am yours and you are mine for now and until the end of time. I never knew I could be so happy. Thank you for all that's happened. I just want you to know I wouldn't trade this for the world. I've never felt this much for anyone.
4.
It's Monday and I'm already worn out from last week. My heart break is still easily standing it's ground. This week everything's changing. I promise. I won't give up on you. I won't. Never say never. Yeah, it could be better. But perfect for me isn't perfect for you. All that I ask for is you in my arms, Happier days and for us to live on. I'm reaching for a hand to guide me. I've found one. It's yours. We're better than friends so don't try to pull that line. I won't take no for an answer. Never say never. Yeah, it could be better. But perfect for me isn't perfect for you. All that I ask for is you in my arms, Happier days and for us to live on. They said if you try that you will succeed. Darling, you mean the universe to me. Just give me a chance. I'll give it my all. You won't have to worry about being alone. Never say never. Yeah, it could be better. But perfect for me isn't perfect for you. All that I ask for is you in my arms, Happier days and for us to live on.
5.
The perfect weather and a perfect day are so easily thrown away. I didn't mean to make the mistakes I made. An ideal without a cause? There is no such thing. But I say sorry, I say sorry another chance to live again. There's a place where angels sing. Where everyone is happy. I'm always waiting for you to open up your heart. I'll write a letter to say I'm sorry for all those days. I didn't mean too make the mistake I made. There's a place where angels sing. Where everyone is happy. I'm always waiting for you to open up your heart. I'm so sorry. I'm always sorry. Please forgive me. I didn't mean it. I'm always waiting.
6.
This bracelet you gave me reminds me of hard times When crying knocked the wind clear out of me. I said "I'll never feel better." I'm staying up later since you said you would call me But it's been two hours past the time that you promised me. It's all been going down hill since early last week. You've broken your promise so I'm breaking my promise too. It doesn't matter much. I can ignore it. I can forgive you. But can you say sorry and will you mean it? Do I love you for nothing? I just don't understand you girl. It's hard to believe that everything I've done for you is not what you need. But I guess that I'll move on. I guess I can live. It's you I can't handle now. It doesn't matter much. I can ignore it. I can forgive you. But will you say sorry and will you mean it? Do I love you for nothing? It doesn't matter much. I can ignore you. I can forget you. I can say sorry and yes I'll mean it. Do I love you for nothing? This bracelet you gave me reminds me of hard times When crying knocked the wind clear out of me. I said "I'll never feel better." I'll never feel better.
7.
Late that night on Wednesday you said you were somebody's girl. It came as no surprise. I was never meant to rule the world. All I ever wanted was the truth and nothing else. So I didn't yell. No, I didn't yell. I'm locking my door and I'm crying my eyes out. I'm crying my eyes out. I won't get to sleep tonight. Try not to be so mean to that next unlucky guy. I'm crying my eyes out. You said you'd never hurt me. That was your first lie. I assumed you really loved me but I'm just another fool. I handed you my heart and you ignored my generosity. I could never take it back. No, I will never take it back. I'm locking my door and I'm crying my eyes out. I'm crying my eyes out. No, I won't get to sleep tonight. Try not to be so mean to that next unlucky guy So he won't have to cry so much And he can get to sleep at night. I'm sick of this. I'm sick of truth. I'm sick of love. I'm sick of trying. I'm sick of life. I'm sick of trust. I'm sick of hope. I'm sick of you. Yeah, it hurts too much. So why waste my breath on you?
8.
Our conversation's lacking words. My mind's clouded up. You're usually not like this, something must be up. You're twirling your hair. You're not looking me in the eyes. Give me the bad news first. I've got my heart on my sleeve. It doesn't even matter. We're one year older. It's one year closer to dying. I'm scared. The temptations and fighting them is the challenge to deal with. Forget the heartbreak. Compared to this it's elementary. I'll paint my T.V. with a different picture, Just get out of my head. I need to forget you. I've got my heart on my sleeve. It doesn't even matter. We're one year older. It's one year closer to dying. I'm scared.
9.
Two crayons sat upon a bed. One was green the other red. The sheets were blue to set the mood. The silly crayons name was Fred. He told her that he was in love. Outside the window, singing doves Sewed and pressed on bright blue sky And crawling were two lady bugs. He nudged her with a giggle. She smiled and scootched in a little. If she had a hand, he would grasp. He gave her a purple skittle. He poked his girl and lent a hug. They rolled around on top a rug. Two little crayons fell in love. It was the same for you and me, Curled and hunched under a tree. The shade blocked the sun so hot. My hands were in your pocket. I licked my lips. I could taste it now. The love for you left me in awe. Two little kids fell in love. I fell in love with you. It wasn't something I was supposed to do But I fell in love with you. The wrappers wrapped them up so tight And held them all throughout the night. The colors mixed to form a new. The crayons remind me of you. He poked his girl and lent a hug As they rolled around on top a rug. Two little crayons fell in love. I fell in love with you. It wasn't something I was supposed to do, But I fell in love with you. Now they fall asleep together. Each one holding the other. Two little crayons fell in love.
10.
Thank You 04:22
You change my world without a word. You make fishes jump in a pond. You make dying trees begin to grow. You change my day with your smile. You take care of every child. You take the fields and make them grow a bright bright green. You make it rain when the sun is hot. You make it snow when it is not. You take my shady blues away from me. If I knew where I was going and caught you before you went. If I lived in New York City and had the money I had spent. If my life line changed and I was rearranged. I'd thank you. If I knew what I was missing or if I really didn't care. If for once I'd follow through and never run off scared. If I could touch you and not worry about my hurt. I'd thank you. If I knew where I was going and caught you before you went. If I lived in New York City and had the money I had spent. If my life line changed and I was rearranged. I'd thank you. I'd like to thank you for what you've done. I hope that you'll remember me as your shining sun. I need you as much as you need me. Thank you.
11.
Songbirds 04:14
The swing set's swinging. The songbirds are singing. I can't help remember but when we sat there together With your legs rocking back and forth and toes scrunching up. My hand in your hand as you looked up and said "Baby, I love you like no one loves anything. Take me forever. Just take me forever. We'll be together. As long as I'm yours I promise it'll all be alright." I said "Sweetie don't worry. I'm already yours. Nothing can come between us." With the songbirds still singing, I started dancing. You couldn't help but smile at me. The laughter and joy brought us together. The love for each other kept us forever. I walked you home even though the weather was unsure of what it might be. When we arrived at your house. You asked me to come in. I was so nervous. I tried keeping my distance. I had trembling fingers when you moved up to kiss me. I think for a second it killed me. I gave you a flower completely in bloom. You started dancing. You didn't stop until you were tired. I couldn't help but smile. We laid on your bed. We both feel asleep together. The sunlight played readily across your face With the swing set swinging and the songbirds still singing.
12.
This diary has run out of pages. On each and every line I had written your name But I've crossed out every single one. The pages are torn and so is my heart. I still look at it every night to remind me never to make the same mistake again. And writing a song will keep me awake Cause I'm scared I'll dream of you. The ink bleeding through the paper portrays Bleeding Heart's Melody. So I crumble up this chapter of my life. It needs to be forgotten. I wish it was that easy. If only it were that easy. And writing a song will keep me awake Cause I'm scared I'll dream of you. I'll never feel better.

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released July 15, 2005

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